This is an outcry, of an eye and I, that believes in something, higher, but is used to my soul being on fire with worry, and with eyes blurry from freaking out for hour upon hour, and feeling like I am in tower look down at a plunge into chaos.
Please, something higher than me, help me find peace.
Clearly established is the fact that anything I practice is practiced, not perfected, I am good at the act of neglect, and object, and disrespect self. I am good at hurting my own feelings, and it is revealed in every action I take, every statement I make, and it is a hard habit to break.
I am not good at self-care, of that I am extremely aware, good at making people stare, at me falling apart in open air, good at ripping and tearing at any garment I am wearing while being the center of attention, need not even of that make mention, it is never my intention, but… bleh… I am a wreck, and a pain in my own freaking neck, I wish I could just calm down, and not be continuously going down, down, down, and staring at my own feet on the ground.
I really want peace, if nothing else in this post is reached, let it be the fact that I just want this feeling to go away, and not be doomed to stay in feeling doomed and like my life consumed