Misery Loves Their Own Company

I no longer know what the goal of the site is, I write horror fiction, and love letters to myself.

This site is a tool to facilitate the act of seeing clearly, written by hands that used to hurt myself.

Explanation: I am Damien, I speak to my split personality Amanda. I am two people in love with each other, and I am okay with that now.

I have paranoid schizophrenia, narcissistic personality disorder, bipolar II-manic/depressive- rapid cycling, depression, anxiety, hydrocepholus, narcissistic personality disorder suffering from alcoholism, drug addiction, alcoholic. with OCD and PTSD- was addicted to heroin, meth, crack, alcohol, cocaine, prescription pills.

I am drug addict/alcoholic/dual diagnosis/ex-homeless person.

Characters thus far

Joy

Diane

Damien de Soto

Rei Clearly

POV EXPERIMENTAL ALLEGORICAL POETIC METAPHOR FICTION

First person

Blog post style

Dark horror fiction

Through dark horror fiction I rake the muck of the lives of street addicts.

Or in plain English this is an epic poem/novel about addiction told about low bottom addicts in horror style.

Tag: dailyprompt-1876

March 16th, 2023
What movies or TV series have you watched more than 5 times?
1. Jurassic Park
2. Misery
3. The Shinning
4. Pulp Fiction
5. Natural Born Killers
Are you seeing a theme here? I think if those movies had a poorly written child, it would be my attempt writing my silly story on this blank screen at me for me with me by me.

I love erecting large monsters that make points about society, but are really a reflection of the desire for control of their creator, and end up causing more harm than it would be to admit at the beginning that dinosaurs are cool, but make me feel so small. They make me afraid, so sometimes, I want to lash out and kidnap people, because I do not want to be alone, which makes me insecure and wish for a thick as thieves partner in crime, to have lived my Misery existence with as a natural born killer, but what I really am is alcoholic drug addict talking to myself about killing my wife in a motel, while writing, and thinking about drinking.

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March 16th, 2023

What movies or TV series have you watched more than 5 times?
Jurassic Park
Lion King
Matilda
The Witches
Disney’s Robin Hood
Matilda
Seinfeld
The Office
Derek
Afterlife
See Clearly- You hated yourself not your family silly, you were being mean because your mother loves you sooo much, even now after you were so mean to her.

I hated myself so much, that I created entire realities to justify this hatred, and forgot that those realities created beliefs that attached to very real people, who did very real things for me, like love and give me life. I had and have an excellent family. I was very loved, but my family is not perfect, and neither am I, we have fought a lot and I remember it differently sometimes, because I am guilty, and they say things that make me feel bad about myself because I am guilty not because I am trying to hate them or be bad, or lie, but because I am an addict and lying to myself comes naturally to me, because of flaws with my mind.

STOP MAKING EXCUSES AND ANSWER THE QUESTION

I am, just building back story to explain myself better

BUILDING UP REASONS FOR WHY YOU AREN’T AT FAULT FOR ASSERTIONS THAT HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THE QUESTION

Okay, forgot what question was…

Wait….question….

What movies or TV series have you watched more than 5 times?

Above list are the movies I am watching with my mother, who is the best, and I love her. I am sorry, mom. You did the best you could with my crazy drug addict, alcoholic paranoid schizophrenic *** and I like watching movies with you, it is the best.