How would you rate your confidence level?

Either one or ten, no in between, going back and forth minute by minute, based on reflections on pain and suffering or me being selfish or kind, over and over and over and over all day, presented on the internet for the amusement of the viewers of this blog because it makes me feel better and is part of a larger recovery process, and experiment with trying to grow as a person.

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Ticking time Expose

I am the mind of Damien de Soto.

I am the mind of the reckless psycho.

The path of the fool traveling in the dark, the tale of the one who twists and turns in light that is stark.

The act of wondering why you hate yourself while glorifying ego.

The walk in the park and shot at a flying bald eagle.

I am offense at everything you say, and the desire to simultaneous desire to defend everything I say.

I am addiction to stop but also to addiction to go.

I am yes, but also I am no.

I am bipolar, I am paranoid. I am insane.

I am addicted addict with no drug, and now thinking brain.

I am ****ed and painful but no longer lying, I am crying, screaming but at least learning and no longer dying.

Peace.

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The hole is gone, replaced with this, and I swear now I am losing my mind. I didn’t kill anyone, I think… not sure actually… I don’t know… I don’t know how long has gone by since the last time I saw anyone…. I can’t remember…

I really…. can’t… remember……. not as hard……….

as…………

eye

try

If you could permanently ban a word from general usage, which one would it be? Why?

If I have to be less self-centered. Then everyone else does too. But, seriously…. that is not incorrect I can start a word with but because I am want to.

If it were removed from the English language it wouldn’t be so hard to stop saying, because it wouldn’t exist and maybe in a society where it didn’t exist people wouldn’t be so self-centered because it would be kind of a post I kind of world, where people lived in higher acknowledgement of each other and in more a unifying way.

Maybe if people stop segmenting each other with difference, but instead loved everyone by nature of being a living thing that deserves respect then we would be less violent.

But, who am I to talk I was writing about killing people till a couple days ago.