The goal of this site is simple, to find kindness in the world, and establish connection through the act of clarity that comes with meditating on human connection and sobriety, peace, joy, and serenity.

This site is a tool to facilitate the act of seeing clearly, written by hands that used to serve misery.

Thank you, your compliment and reading this means the world to me, for explanation I have paranoid schizophrenia, narcissistic personality disorder, bipolar II-manic/depressive rapid cycling, depression, anxiety, hydrocepholus, narcissistic personality disorder suffering from alcoholism, drug addiction, alcoholic. with OCD and PTSD- was addicted to heroin, meth, crack, alcohol, cocaine, prescription pills. I am drug addict/alcoholic/dual diagnosis/ex-criminal/ex-homeless vagrant who is writing instead of committing crime on the street corners of this country or the voice of the drug epidemic screaming on here instead of tweaking and shooting heroin on a corner while holding a sign and waiting for my man.

Characters thus far



Damien de Soto

Rei Clearly

All characters are me, or my pen names, or my imaginary friends, or my split personalities, dramatized fictionalized, scape goats, captive in my mind.

The reason behind the anonymity

I have maintained the anonymity of my real identity not just because I am a liar. I am a liar, but I also thoroughly ruined my life to the point where the anonymity is necessary because there are certain people who are very angry with me who I do not want to have contact with while I am trying to recover from addiction and try to make some sort of effort to be a decent human being. I have faced the very real ramifications of a life spent back and forth on the streets and in houses funded by unsavory methods. I desire the anonymity because there are certain friends I have that are very unsavory characters, who want to kick my *** for lack of a better word. I faced all the situations in this story minus actually having to hurt anyone. I wrote about that as a way to get justice in a fictional way, and get out repressed rage when what really happened was I had to turn the other cheek and feel like a coward because I walked away instead of standing up for myself.



4 responses to “The reason behind the anonymity”

    • I am trying, and appreciate that, it made me smile and means more than you even know, I used to be a gigantic liar, con-artist really, trying to recover from a life of crime, addiction and debauchery… this is the most honest I have ever been, and it is saving my life, in recovery from heroin, meth, crack, cocaine, alcohol, reds, blues, alcohol, and struggling with schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, and narcissistic personality disorder. I am a lunatic.

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  1. Reblogged this on Write and Create (from Creative Writing Course) and commented:
    “One cannot always tell what it is that keeps us shut in, confines us, seems to bury us, but still one feels certain barriers, certain gates, certain walls. is all this imagination, fantasy?”


    Thanks for another/more follows

    IF you want to go on a journey (destination unknown), you can follow me. Thanks and enjoy the trip.

    happy travelling
    “early bird sleepy-head” craig (here in “Sleepy Hollow”)

    “I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel’s sake. The great affair is to move.
    – Robert Louis Stevenson + my third book ‘Here, There and Everywhere’

    “Do not go where the path may lead. Go where there is no path and leave a trail”
    of confusion + CHAOS (at least in the “real world” and hopefully NOT cyberspace too)

    “the going nowhere (fast) man”

    “Information and Inspiration Distributer, Incorrigible Encourager and People-builder *

    * not bridges (thank goodness)!

    Well my family and friends say I’m “safest” just writing and sharing

    “Mr Do-little”


    Don’t worry about the world ending today…its already tomorrow in scenic and tranquil ‘little’ New Zealand


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